haiiyo. when i read everybody`s entries. all they talk about is studying now. haha. they seem to be working real hard. scared i cannot catch up. but i can`t seem to bring myself to do it. haha. plain lazy? maybe i should read alil. xD see how la. on sundays now i have pastoral attachment. and i need my confirmation name! can`t think of nice nice ones. haha. just wrote my compo for learning lab. on disaster. actually quite stressed when writing compo or doing eng stuff. cuz u gotta pressure urself to do ur utmost best. if not people will like start saying how come ur eng language standard is going down. not like i want it do right? so whenever i do compos i put ALOT of effort into it. n when i get back e results. pple ask me how i do so well.. den assume it`s tyco one. den when they say it to me. sometime`s will feel quite hurt la. they always assume tt everything`s easy for me. u really think so? try to put yourself in my position alright? life is not easy for me too. i`m trying. always. in no matter wut i do. i HAVe to be gd. in singing. writing. studies. music. it`s pressure. n guess wut? each n every time. i try super hard to porve my worth amongst pple. who just shrug it off n say it`s luck. fair? i dun think so. i deserve my due credit. hmms. now eliza oso becoming v weird leh. she always think she v high class. den because me n noel dun like abalone. den she like kindof say we v low class. den even sneer at us. she even implied quite alot of stuff directly at me. but i didn`t say anything la. didn`t tell anyone oso. except siewhwee. can`t tell anyone right? dominic? he`s quite close to eliza. but she doesn`t do tt sort of stuff to him. aiya. dunno la. i feel she`s different. e way she thinks. n it`s not gd. it`s those kind tt only mean pple would think of.
but somehow. i`ve gotta tahan la. i`ve been going home w her more often. so i get to know her more. actually i`d rather i didn`t know so much oso. den i wouldn`t feel this way. but at least i`m talking to germaine now! happy. haha. now quite close to ian noel they all. den in class i nvr really talk to christine alr. haha. nth to talk about. this yr o levels. really scared. it`s fight or flight. i have to make a decision. n i can do it. (: i know i can.
